Real Life

I feel like I always post about the great and good things going on with us, but tonight I feel that to the blogging world, I need to get some frustrations out from the past 2 days. So here has been real life for us the past couple of days.
It started on Sunday with Jeremiah being super clingy, fussy, etc. After taking his temperature, he has a temp of 100. So I thought it could be him cutting more teeth. John David checked his ears for an infection, but like he would say, "I'm an orthopod, not a pediatrician. I can't tell if he has an ear infection or not! I work with bones!" So Monday he wakes up even worse than the day before and his temperature gets up to 102. So we decide this can't be teething and it must be something else. I take him to the Dr. today and he has a viral infection which will have to run its course for the next 3-5 days.
So after 2 days of a sick child (for the first time in his life) and being up half the night last night, I am exhausted. I feel like I have been dealing with his sickness plus my sickness (spiritually). All of these sins have been surfacing the past 2 days that I just hate. For example: selfishness, impatience, covetousness, and so many others. I was listening to a John Piper sermon last week and this is what he stated, "Thanksgiving is exalting God and covetousness is exalting yourself!" So true. I feel that I am selfish in that I have what I want to get done every day and can't with a sick child. I am impatient by the time night comes around b/c I am so tired. And I am coveting all of the well children. But that is what bothers me the most. I should be thankful that it is only a viral infection and nothing worse. There are so many children that are way worse than Jeremiah and I should be thankful that Jeremiah is as healthy as he is.

And to top off the past 2 days, tonight I was suctioning his nose before he went to bed. He got so mad and hurt (he moved his head and the suctioner stuck him) that he held his breath for so long, he passed out! What? It scared me more than I have ever been scared. So what did I do? Picked him up, crying hysterically and when I picked him up, he jumped and "woke up." He was scared and so was I. He is fine now and I will be ok too but for now I am devastated.

So please pray for Jeremiah's sickness and mine. Thank you.